kendra seward

I’m terrified that this is my last semester of college. I’m very unprepared for the future and this is something I’ve become very aware of. I have no idea what I’m supposed to be doing with my life and this scares me. 

Today I got bored, went to target, and bought really expensive makeup. Yeah, it was unnecessary, but I did it. Sometimes I feel like I have to buy things when I’m depressed. Another way you can tell that I’m not feeling my best.. I will curl my hair. Makes me feel prettier I guess. 

Something else on my mind: I hate when people push my boundaries. I’m a very shy/reserved person. I do not want to go hang out with people I don’t know and I don’t like when people are surprised by this fact. It’s how I’ve always been. I’m probably not changing in the near future. Why do you have to make me feel bad about it? I know that I’m probably preventing myself from meeting some great people, but honestly I’m just not too fucking concerned about it. Leave me alone.